Saturday, October 25
Picture this.
Your life is healthy and you’re happy. You have many things in life that you wanted to do, and haven’t done. Going to exotic places and meeting interesting people. Best of all, you probably have a couple of good friends who would be more than willing to explore all the new things together, and all of you are looking forward to it.
You have a nice boyfriend who you think you will be getting married to and everything seems to go smoothly around you. Just some occasional ups and occasional downs, but still smooth. In short, your life seems to unfolds interestingly in front of you as you walk down the path you chose. You know what will happen next, you know how you will react. You know how people around you will be happy to share your happiness and so on and so forth.
One day, you felt weird, a few things have been going wrong in your body, and you thought “ah, just the usuals again.” It went a little bit more than you expected, and you reckon you should see a doctor anyway, to make sure everything is alright, just in case. It was just a ‘just in case’ thingy, and you didn’t really expect anything.
Next, you’re diagnosed with some chronic disease and certain issues if not taken care of properly, may result in death. Chance are still on the low side that you die, but it’s not impossible. Something like maybe, 60-40.
The things that you look forward to may not come true anymore because it requires you to risk your own life doing it. You future is vague.
Even if you don’t mind suffering and live on positively, you know you will eventually affect the people around you. To those who are closer to you, you know you might be a burden to them for all their life as long as you live. And you don’t want them to suffer together with you, because you love them very much, even if they are more than willing to. You think that one day they might not be able to take it anymore, and you might lose every reason there is for you to live.
How would you feel? Or what would you do?
