Walking With Us

Tuesday, August 5

So, went to the event. And why am I not surprise? Someone gave me the wrong info again. This time round though, I can’t really be bothered. Everything went quite well, other than not knowing how to response correctly in some circumstances, but I got used to this kind of slight embarrassment. Knowing there will still be more, I can’t help but get use to it.

The people there who went as guest, I guess all of them are about 2 decades older than me. It does tense me up a little, but seeing how they talk among themselves and have me just listening and eat my cheese and drink my wine. I didn’t know what to say, just trying to figure out what they’re talking about, a bit here and there. They are all friendly faces, nothing intimidating and they ease the air around me a little, or maybe it’s just the wine.

I turned down an invitation to a dinner after that so I could bring my monitor with dead pixel back for an exchange, good thing is the one I changed for didn’t have any problem, I am glad.
I hope tomorrow is a good day, lately I haven’t felt very good. There is nothing to worry about or stress me out, I am just simply down, I don’t know why. I wish something good will happen so that this feeling fades away. Lately, it has been too stale.

Why do I feel suffocated? I felt like things have changed, it was nothing about you, but everything about me, it is just different. I feel a different, yet unable to comprehend. What hit me? Is it good or is it bad? Or is it just reality? Maybe, it’s just post menstruational mood swing. Need a few days to find out then…