The usual day today, just working etc etc, it was the first day I took the diet pills which consist of both fat blocker and metabolic enhancer.

The side effects which sounded quite scary didn’t exactly have much effect on me. Well at least on the first day.

Known possible side effects (According to what the doctor told me and what I remember)

-Giddiness

-Headache

-Sweaty

-Feeling cold

-Thirsty

-Insomnia

(According to what I’ve heard from words of mouth from my memory)

-All the above

-Depression

-Lost of appetite

The side effects that affected me

-Giddiness

Yes girls, just one. The minor giddiness didn’t at all affect any of my daily routines, it didn’t stop me from playing with my cousin like we’re at the biggest playground in the world providing the best smiles and services for my customers during work. The severity of giddiness didn’t even need me to reach out for medicated oil or panadols. It feels more like the 5 seconds giddiness you would get when you smell something really awful, nothing more.

I am not sure if the medication causes any depression on me coz of my own unusually down feeling lately. So I can’t tell, the doctor didn’t mention anything about depression either, so I guess it’s safe to say it’s not the medication’s fault.

About insomnia, well, I can’t really tell yet, coz my usual sleeping time is pretty quite late already. Unless I can’t fall asleep until 6 am. Then again, Something is on my mind anyway, I won’t be surprise not being able to sleep two hours later then my usual time. Until I am confident enough, I won’t say the medication causes any insomnia, well at least on me.

About appetite, I still eat my usual amount of meal during work, some snacks, some coffee, plain water etc. I guess my appetite is not all that affected.

Sweaty or cold wise, not really coz I am in air con room all day, and cold? I am already wearing jacket all along at my work place, I don’t feel anymore colder then I usually am.

Thirsty wise, well, I am not a drinker in the first place, I don’t drink the healthy amount of water per day, I am sure many others are the same. I don’t feel any need of drinking extra water or so.

The above results varies from person to person, so I won’t say if it didn’t cause me any difficulties then it means the same for you. Furthermore, it might take a few days before the side effect take place. Some people get affected right away though, at least now I can be sure I am not affected to that extend.

I did something bad today though, accidentally.

I laughed at a customer in front of him. Well I can’t really control it, the laughter just came out, I tried to pass it off by coughing since I am already having sinus anyway, but it was so obvious, even my cousin who is standing diagonally behind me can tell I was laughing. I made quite a fool out of myself today too, a series of awfully broken English came out of my mouth during conversation with different people. The doctor didn’t tell me that the medication could retard my brain, I wasn’t prepared, so it’s still not my fault yeah?

*hope*

Hope tomorrow doesn’t rain.

Hope tomorrow is sunny.

Hope 2 million dollar fall from the sky.

Hope something really happy happens soon.

Hope I get up in time for the swimming mood to meet with the sunny day tomorrow.

Hope I don’t laze.

Hope I finally finish my home data entry by tomorrow.

Hope a few of my worries get answers soon.

Hope my good hunches lately is not wrong.

For all the hopes above, (realistic one of coz) time will show the way.

Hope my last sentence is true.

Today marks the 1^st year of me being with moo. As expected, nothing much happen today. Moo’s boss let him drive the van around today to bring me out, how nice. We went for dim sum, at dragon gate, I won’t recommend anyone to go there for dim sum although the last time I had buffet lunch there on Cass full month, it left me a good impression. Well the dim sum… not so good.

Moo took the liberty to make orders for dim sum from a list of Chinese menu. So I thought he knew my taste and decided to be the man today. How nice, and I thought my dim sum cravings will finally be fulfilled.

I was quite wrong. I carelessly forgot the fact that he can’t read Chinese letters well, at least worse than me. After the order was made… I look at the orders and see a weird combination of dim sum. 2 different type of siu mai, char siew ( those put on char siew rice kind, I didn’t even think of it as part of dim sum family) sweet and sour fish, -_-“ some other meaty meaty thingy…salted fish tofu etc. which look almost like a normal dish.. All the dim sum I had in mind wasn’t ordered.

I asked him… Why on earth did he order such dishes… we could have just went somewhere else to eat instead of coming all the way here for dim sum.

“I donno how to read ler…. The words looks nice then I order which one lor…”

I asked him… Why did you not just let me know you can’t read so I can place the order myself

“I am a guy ler.. must be the one who order.. look more shuai”

I was speechless and omg…

We had a hard time clearing all those dishes and finally ordered what I wanted. Only 3 of them… we didn’t have enough stomach space to contain those anymore… so it was an agony meal… the quality of the food didn’t help either…

I guess Pam is right, you get what you pay for…

We went to vivo for a little walk and to Gloria Jeans which didn’t impress me. Saw a dress at Zara but was expensive and besides… it will look good only if worn on good figures. So… we give it a miss.

We didn’t stay long as it is time for our appointment, with the magic doctor.

We went to the diet doctor at golden hair road. Ok, fine, I am trying to be lame.. Its at

John Chiam Medical Clinic

Block 11 Ghim Moh Road, #01-72, S'pore 270011

Tel : 67633811

It’s the first time I am there after hearing so many stories about him. Just as what I’ve heard, he is patience and willing to help. Explain things to us in details… let us have mental preparation of what will happen or so on so forth, like reduce in cup size etc. Maybe or maybe not, will get giddy spells, insomnia, sweat, etc, pretty much what it will feel like when you haven’t exercise for five ten years and then run 2.4km at a enormous speed. Just have to take anti giddy pills etc if the side effect comes etc… or if not, give him a call if you’re worried. I didn’t exactly ask much coz he filled me enough info.

Anyway…. I weigh 64 kg, unlike the 62 kg I thought I am. So as of now, my BMI is 25.6

He is targeting my BMI to be 20, which is about 49 to 50 kg. I didn’t ask how long it will take since I want to see it for myself and gauge. Prescribed me 2 packet of pills, one white, one white-blue. Will be starting tomorrow.. Wish me luck…

Went for the BBQ coz someone is leaving for good. It wasn’t raining as we’re setting up the fire, but rained right after the fire was ready… Ended up going up to his apartment and chit chat etc etc before we left. Saw some old friends, as in old, very long never meet kind and catch up a bit, but all in all, it was quite fun, funny, etc etc. Didn’t stay long coz moo had to wake up early tomorrow…

Generally, Anniversary was pretty much what I expected it to be. No sweet dinner, no love in the air, probably my mood plays a part, and no nothing, just a usual day. Except that me and moo finally get to step out of house together for anything other than work.

Think from now on, every time I blog, I will post my current weigh to see the progress. Just to keep a record.

Weight : 64 Kg

BMI : 25.6

Target Weight : 50 Kg

Target BMI : 20

Feeling weird these 2 days… I didn’t do anything weird or out of line but I got a dry throat, sinus, etc… no sore throat or what though.. drowsy whole day because of the sinus… under the observation of my experienced it uncle. He deduced all these to be a part of withdrawal symptoms after I stop smoking, well for only three days now…

Anyway, haven’t been feeling good lately… The only things that can sort of satisfy me here and there now is food and food and food… That is a bad thing though, coz today, after seeing my photo a year ago.. both my uncle and my cousin were in shock… utter shockness… with question marks written all over their forehead.. wondering how on earth I changed so much…

Then again, it still didn’t stop me from eating a lot lately… part of it is probably food is used to replace my smoking… cutting down a lot to not smoking at all, really, I realized I’ve been eating lots and more… it’s a bit scary when I list the amount of things I eat per day. I didn’t feel the huge amount when I am eating though, just counting at the end of the day.. you know…

Here are some of the *ahem* delicious edibles I’ve been eating this few days.. just a fraction of it.

Since I realize that my blog has very, very little traffic, I think it’s pretty safe to say whatever follows,

Short little updates :

-My bad things-

Bad Number 1:

Eating way too much, gaining more and more weight… Can’t stop eating… munch and munch and munch, hungry eat, not hungry also eat. Ballooning way too much…

Bad Number 2:

My dad is still making me not attend my own brother’s wedding talking about all the disowning etc through sms. My position still stays the same though. Not close with my brother, but still my brother, I will want to be there when he gets married etc, not attending and forcing people not to is bullshit… but of coz, as usual, I didn’t reply. Why should I? There is 20% possibility of it being a hoax considering my dad’s primary characteristic. Due to some recent persuading, I’ve decided to just stick to that little not so hopeful hope despite all my anger of every other thing. If things goes well, I will be able to shop and shop and shop just coz I feel like spending his $ when I am not feeling good. because Chinese new year is coming anyway, or Christmas gift, or whatsoever, or my belated birthday present, or my birthday present since I was 14 or whatsoever reason is available. Well if things don’t go well, I will be living in some unknown place with strangers and probably become single sad and pathetic with no friends no money and no life.

Bad Number 3:

Not smoking for a while is quite a disaster, on top of eating out of whatever reasons I already have, I have been eating snacks and other things in place of smoking. Bad Number 1 and 3 combine is just not helping anything.

Bad Number 4:

The recent semi permanent – permanent sinus is killing every bit of me… feeling tired all day long even when working, but of coz I don’t exactly show my “tiredness” with all the makeup I use to cover it all up.

Bad Number 5:

Tomorrow is the 1^st year anni for me and moo, well yeah suppose to be good news, but I don’t really feel any romantic whatsoever in the air… whatever feeling that is supposed to be. Only overflowing tones of dark clouds in my imaginary mind space, I doubt moo has the ability to put a truthful smile on my face tomorrow at all.

Bad Number 6:

If Bad number 5 really happens, moo is gonna be so sad, upset, disappointed, whatsoever = not good too.

-My Wonders -

Wonders Number 1:

When will I get back the interest I lost in many things

Wonders Number 2:

Will I, my life, blood related whoever, whatever is around me ever really settle down and have peace?

Wonders Number 3:

When will I go back to my ‘a year ago’ figure?

Wonders Number 4:

When will my mind be at peace?

Wonder Number 5:

When will I finally be ‘cold’ enough if Number 2 don’t happen?

Wonder Number 6:

Will I ever get rich?

-My good things-

Good Number 1:

Tomorrow is my anniversary with moo.

Good Number 2:

I am seeing a diet doctor tomorrow.

Good Number 3:

At least this is the longest time I’ve cut down / stop smoking thus far, (probably breaking smoke-fast tomorrow though)

Good Number 4:

I love my current job

Good Number 5:

I’ve stop MMORPG, those addictive games…

Good Number 6:

I am still alive and kicking.

Do you love yourself?

How do you love yourself?

Imagine if you don’t, how would you live your life?

Just wondering how some of you would answer this question when asked.

Today is quite a wonderful day I would say. Work started out fine although like every Sunday, business wasn’t fantastic.

Went to Da Pai Dang for lunch, food there was great as usual, even greater when the people working there get 20% discount. There is a boring period of time in between time to time, so I got to thinking about Blackie’s usual office adventure, or some may call it prank. I tried to think of funny things so I can keep the smile on my face. Somehow, inspired by all these thoughts, I had a little urge to play a prank myself. So I got in cahoots with my cousin and did some unnecessary things.

Instead of reading and studying about wine like what we usually do, we prank x 3, nothing original as I wasn’t that imaginative at all, but enough to make our day. We clean his shop out of guilt after that though. I guess it’s a fair exchange, or maybe we’re just too nice, usually pranks are just left as it is isn’t it.

I am so not looking forward to Tuesday coz that is the day where I will face the music.

I planned to make tomorrow my work day since I can kind of sense my uncle is in need of the list already… I told him I could just send him the list itself if needed without the details if he needs it fast. But I think I can finish everything with details in one day with the help of my cousin. Might as well yeah?

I didn’t feel any pain today surprisingly, maybe the hot milo I drank last might when I do computer work helps ease the pain for today… well if it makes any sense at all…

My night ended with potato salad from starbucks… ouch… the carbo… sigh…

The culprit for my reason moodiness finally appeared… what all of you might know as Aunt Irma. Well well.. it’s good she came, coz I know after this period of time she is here, I will be back to my normal self. But then again, the pain I have to go through during work this 2 days will be such a dread. Someone please cure my pain. How is it that some people feels nothing when Aunt Irma is visiting? It’s already unfair girls have to go through all these, minority of the girls gets away with the annoying pain. During such times while I could have went drinking with people, I’d rather stay at home and do my home work, so I have my pink panadols ready when I need them. Some warm water, lots of medicated oil, a few pink panadols, red wine is out since I can’t drink it with medicine, some muscle soothing patch and a lot more medicated oil… I hate life like these…. I am sure many girls do, but well.. I am in the process of hating all over again at the moment.

Work.. was fine today. I didn’t manage to work so much, I think my uncle saw my weird look today and decided to be serving most the customers today. Unluckily enough, when I finally stand around to serve, one weird lady whom I thought was a customer came out of loneliness to talk to us… just about various things… and some of which is just there to boost her self confidence… the conversation was long. My uncle and cousin was laughing all the way behind the counter while I was at her disposal. Sadness…

Other than that, the day was fine. Just “looking forward” to yet another day of torturous day tomorrow… How I wish tomorrow is Monday so I could sleep in at home. It’s not that I don’t enjoy work, I do, but I don’t enjoy it when there is an acute pain throughout my working day. Maybe I have low resistant to pain, but you know, it’s not very funny when you get cold sweats and this that because of pain. Especially when I have the tendency to have diarrhea whenever Aunt Irma is visiting. Not something new to many of us here eh? Or am I an alien?

Anyway, my mac donalds is here… (dinner) off to eat and continue to work again ~~Yay shaker fries is back