Went bugis for a lil bit of walking today, mainly to go to the office blah blah…

Anyway, I am excited about tomorrow, coz I will be watching “transformers” Have been waiting for it to come out for quite a while, after watching the trailier a few times, it still never fail to fill me with excitement. Its good.

Then I realized that recently, it has been all the old cartoon comic or manga out in the movies, and they are the real popular ones. I didn’t think I would like action movies that much but recently, I’ve been catching them a lot. Transformers~~ I am cooommiiiiiinn.

I still haven decide if I should just ditch my hair and go for some swimming. I don’t really think that’s a very smart decision, I mean what for rebond my hair if I would just jump into the pool knowing its gonna screw up my hair. Oh maaann what should I do… I doubt wearing the protector helps much too. Does it?

Another thing on my mind is that, although my job has been quite stable although very flexible, but recently it seems to be quite rocky, I didn’t get the job as much as I use to. Or maybe its just this week, I don’t know. I am just gonna ask the agency to put me on another job. Which has more working hours, I don’t know, it seems that I can’t stand staying at home and slack all the way. Doing it less then a week already made me feel terrible. I need to work!!!!!!

After my birthday I gonna start bugging my agent again. Hur hur… but then again, everytime I mention that I will be out of SG a bit, they gimme a short pause which I didn’t really like. The pause seems to mean “ ok, so you want a job with longer hours but you’re gonna travel soon and leave me finding replacement again for you. What do you expect me to do” that kind of feeling… maybe I should just lie to her I cancelled my trip and secretly ask someone to replace me during the 2-3 weeks while I am gone. Should I ?

Liar liar pants on fire.

I AM AN IDIOT I AM AN IDIOT I AM AN IDIOT I AM AN IDIOT I AM AN IDIOT. Booked transformers for 3 on the 30th of June but it turns out to be tonight not tomorrow. Have to go down to change the booking personally, but my sweet moo is willing to go down for me under much persuasion and condition. So much for sweet.

I really feel like going for a swim, my hair was just rebonded a month ago, swimming is the only exercise I really enjoy, I spent $120 for hair rebonding. I haven’t swim for about 3 months and my shape is getting from bad to worse. My hair will turn into cabage if I go for a swim. Hair , swim hair swim hair swim hair swim hair swim hair swim hair swim….

Ugh….

I brought my cousin to the salon today to re do her hair, the service is still good and all, although it took 2 round to do her hair well, but its still worth to go there coz of their friendly attitude and good service. Besides, not every one have a hair condition that requires 2 rebondings before its done well.

There are 1 bad news though, 2 of my snails dried up even though I put plentiful of water in the tank, I wonder why……..

Yesterday, finally! I can have 100% control of a single computer and made some customization to the com itself, not the hardware not the whatever, just for th look of it, I changed the icons to globes and my usual visual style was changed to, and my logon screen, but the most interesting one is…

You know the windows 98 error screen, the one in whole scary blue screen and white text. Yeah that, I changed it to my start up screen where the screens turned back with the windows xp pro and the progressing bar.. yeah it is now the blue error screen… Although I was the one who did the change, amusingly enough, sometimes when I reboot my com, and often while doing that, that amount of seconds needed for me to wait made me bored enough to go into deep thought. Then the blue screen came out and I drop all my deep thought and thought my com crashed again feeling “not again”. The shock usually last for 1 second before I silently laugh at myself for being a such an idiot. It was fun though, I would imagine my friend will be shock if anyone ever comes into my room and reboot my com. “ sorry I didn’t mean it, I didn’t know what happen, I just tried to reboot.” Aaaaww that would be cute. Ok I know, I am lame.

Putting every single shit aside for now, I have a bad leak in my room, I wasn’t really sure if it was the air-con or the window, there use to be some leaks that eventually destroyed some of my furnitures before when I was young, but it was solved after I put some towels up at the window, ok, not exactly window, I don’t know what its called, the one at the top of the window, you won’t touch it. The glass are like penals. You know?

Anyway, initially I thought it’s the rain, but it also leak badly during usnny days, and I still thought that its just the rain last night, but it has been going on so long, dry day, leaky air con or window. So I guess It must be the aircon. Destroyed somethings in my room before I notice there is actually more then one leak. This building I am staying is old, really old, probably need some renovating, but it doesn’t seems like we’re getting any soon. I asked for help already and hope it faster arrive, the dirty water is there any amount of time I clean that piece of floor. Its killing me……

Finally went for my sashimi today, was good, but I didn’t eat the amount I expected. I simply didn’t have the appetite although I have been looking forward to it for a while. Feeling restless and tired recently, hate this feeling. Seems to lose interest in everything, other than the new found pet snails, but they’re just pets too. I dread going out of house or actually even out of my room, I know I have to get outside but still… been wanting to go swimming but was too lazy to buy the hair protector, rebonded my hair not long ago and don’t really plan to spoil it. Although it’s not a very good thing, I am kinda glad I lost my appetite. I mean, I might just get slimmer this way. Still don’t like this restless feeling though.

Moo had off for work tomorrow, so maybe he will accompany me and my cousin to the salon tomorrow. I am gonna be bored for at least an hour and the half anyway, so having him there is a bonus, kills my time, and I have a smoking partner. Talk about smoke, I’ve been smoking a lot lesser lately, I am starting to wonder if it’s because of that I suddenly became so hysterical, it’s scary. Been trying to lighten up a lot by playing with my snails, but I think one of them died. Either that or its refusing to come out of its shell coz it’s afraid of something.

I’ve bought new plants and stones for my snails today. A pack of tiny little stones for base, and the plant for them to.. breathe, hide, oxygen, etc la..

Amusingly there are new surprises when I got home. Was trying to ‘install’ the plant and found 2 new babies. This time round, water snail. The one I had first was land snail. The water snail was a lot smaller coz my land snail grew a tiny bit. But still, when they are standing around on the lil stones, I couldn’t figure out where is the snails exactly, damn should have bought a different colored stone. The snail size was as big as the stone if not smaller, it was tedious to look for them. I am sure if I leave it for a few days and supply them with just water, and baby milk drops, they will grow big enough for me to tell the difference, I am just worried that the land snail will devour for water snails for preference of calcium now.

So now, I have 3 confirmed alive land snails, 1 suspected dead land snail, and 2 water snails... all are still babies.

I’ve always been curious about what will happen to snails if I threw salt on them, so I remembered a site that has all the rubbish things which people would upload once a while, the youtube! I went to search salt snail, just this 2 words is enough to trigger many result on sadistic people killing snails in the middle of the night with a box of salt and a torch on their hands.

Its kinda sad actually, I didn’t think I would feel sorry for the big snails but I did. When they threw salt sparingly on snails climbing around or lazing around, they snail will just turn bubbles, slide off about 3 cm down, and drop from high places if they are there. The culprit continue to look for new prey to play with without stopping immediately, not only that, they’re laughing at the tortured to death snails. I found the first dead snail a satisfaction to my curiosity but the rest of them are just … ugh… ouch…

So now instead of throwing salt on them once they grew up, I’ve decided to let them go free instead. I’ve turned kind ^^

As for the ‘hard’ post I’ve made recently, it probably looks like it pin pointed most people with different backgrounds but, that wasn’t my intention. I was definitely pin pointing but also definitely not any of my friends, at least there is non among my friends that I know have extreme views on the unwealthies. I just had to use the extreme way to defend an extreme view that someone or a group made, although just for my own personal satisfaction. With that said, I am sorry if I caused misunderstanding, but I hope no one would think that way again.

Moo on the other hand have been quite patient with my tantrums, but then again, he is more like a punch bag who have a mouth to complain. At least he still let me punch. (descriptive usage here, I didn’t really punch him ok.)

Talk about punching, reminded me of torture, then I thought of what happen to my snail this noon. I saw from a site that I am able to feed them baby milk powder as their source of calcium, but when I throw them into the powder, they don’t look like they like it that much, then I tried dissolving the powder and throw them in, they looked like they almost came out of their shell inside the milk paddle.

They are just wriggling and wriggling and wriggling. To the extent that the shell look as if they would come off any second. I can’t tell if they’re just purely enjoying it way too much or suffering in the milk paddle, but I can’t bear to have a sight of this any longer and push it out of the milk paddle. When I dilute the milk solution further and drops only a drop on them, they seems to be enjoying it though, I am kind of confuse how to go about feeding them calcium.

If anyone knows where I can get cuttlefish bone please let me know. I need it very much. Thank you.

Just that simple.

Can’t sleep at all thinking a lot of things, I think this few days my blog will be filled with lousy emotional baggage.

I was laying on my bed and trying to sleep, had to leave my house at 7 am tomorrow for some errand. Then I was thinking about many things I’ve seen.

I’ve seen many families with trouble thinking about how to spend their money next month, and how to save it. I’ve also seen families who is rich enough to have their son brings out a stack of $50 dollar notes for pocket money each and every day, with a few credit card and one piece of green American express card that everyone dream of having.

Although the rich one also have their good and bad. But I would like to emphasize a bit more on the poor ones. I am not saying all the rich families don’t have their qualities... how should I put this. I just want to say it, don’t ask for so much explanation can?

I am just going to state a few examples. Say like in a family, always making sentences like “ai yah, next month have to save up more again, the hand phone bill is unexpectedly high this month.” Or things like “ai yoh, I lost the $50 note In my wallet ar, just have slipped out when I took out the receipt to check just now, how am I going to survive next week”

These are things that most rich family wouldn’t be troubled for. $50, if it’s a rich family’s kid, he would probably just be nag at a bit. The poor family’s kid? Think of ways to earn back the $50. They are also the same people whom show me a sense of humanity. When a person is rich enough, there is no need to worry about medical bills if you’re sick. You can afford it! Even staying in private rooms in the best hospital won’t be a problem. When they are poor though, they have to stay in the standard class wards. Even so, it might be too expensive for them, thinking of ways to get the money. And if you’re old, you probably do not have enough energy to earn the money yourself especially when you’re already on a hospital bed. In this kind of situation, not all, but some families will just spread the news to the relatives, cousins, niece, nephews, in laws. All if not most of them would do extra work to chip in so that the old woman would survive by having an Op. You may think that it is a given, but how many times do you really see it happening. Although they are always worrying, they still have lived their life happily, strong, beautifully. After all, happiness is not the absence of worries. More than anything, they know the importance of give and take.

When you’re high up there at the peak of the mountains, you see the beautiful white fluffy clouds. You see the world. You are nearer to the sky, and that gives you a sense of satisfaction, it is not a sin. Some prefers the flowers that you can’t see on the mountain peak. Some prefers the height of a tree top. Some prefers to get lost and have fun in the forest. They could never see the view of the peak of a mountain but, it’s ok. No matter where you stand, you see different type of beautiful things. You have preference in those too. Even if you said you’ve seen the view from the top and you’ve passed through the flowers to reach it, it doesn’t mean you definitely know I prefer it up there. One doesn’t need to own a diamond to know that diamond is hard. One doesn’t need to own an abundance of money to know what money can do. Maybe the feeling of really being up there is different, but its not all that important. Many could live without it.

I am not saying all poor families are the best, I am not that -_-“ you know what I mean. Even among the poor there are people who rather bury themselves with drugs and know nothing but drinks alcohol day and night and couldn’t care less about anything. It’s just that between the good of both, I appreciate the majority surrounding of one of them more. It’s just that simple

The purpose of this post is to hope that after posting what have been running thru the back of my mind for the past few years and the 'front' of my mind the past few hours, I will be able to sleep finally.

I know I know, I am suppose to stop with all the snail talk, but I can’t help it, look at the coming picture, I finally manage to use the camera properly. The macro mode that is, I didn’t know it can take at such a close range. I am glad it could though.

And yes the HUGE finger is obviously mine, wait, its not that my finger is huge, its just that the snail is way too tiny !!

Isn’t it just cute? Look at the eyes, aaaaaaaaww. And the body is nothing but a piece of slime. It’s looking at the camera and saying cheese ^^

This too!! Look at it!! Its hiding, its shy now, haha. Of maybe it just hates the shutter sound.

Last but not least, this video I took. Hee hee, isn’t he/she adorable ??

I was surfing and surfing, then I came across this interesting site.

http://www.jdf.or.jp/eng/index.php?Mode=article&id=1355

Look at their work, I specially like the design titled Dandella, yeah of coz, it’s the gold prize. I didn’t specially look for gold prize winner to put mypreference in though. I like the way the Dandella moves around and the way the battery is charged, not to mention the main purpose of this product. Its just brilliant. And I didn’t look at who made this product before I decided it to be my favourite. Yeah Singaporean made it. I feel kinda proud although it has got nothing to do with me. Inventions… singapore? I wouldn’t have think of that.

I suppose this product will be good for curious young kids who like to venture out in the shopping mall when their mum is too engross in big sales. Also, no sense of direction people like me could use it as a tracking device for locations I need to be at too. Well you got to admit some people are not map readers. A thing that tells u direction without the need of map is brilliant, although you might just walk into short cuts and found out that there is a wall in between where you are and where you wanna be.

I left my snail alone today, the 1^st thing I do after waking up and freshen myself up today is not go to my snails… so no snail talk today. Still a lil affected by what happen yesterday. I am probably over reacting, but who cares. My moo was so shocked and scared to provoke me last night, he did anything I asked him to. I sort of enjoy the ride although in my angry and upset mode. Its not often I have this kind of tantrum anyway, so live it with i guess? I realize yet again that being angry and upset takes up a lot of energy too, although I planned to cook today for moo yesterday before anything happen, I woke up today at 4pm still feeling tired with swollen eyes and definitely not in a mood to do some cooking. I am sure moo will understand ^^.

Anyway, my mood is getting a bit better thanx to moo, he made me feel better without probing into what is going on and kept silent when I required him to. The best part is probably that he is working today and I am not, the chance of him provoking me dropped by a lot this way.

There is a one for one premium plate today at suki sushi, means you only pay half price for all the $4.90 sashimi you order, I think I will ask moo to go with me today, been a long time since I’ve had sashimi, kinda missed it, I even threw tantrum at moo coz he refuses to go with me yesterday. Seeing how I am able to save lots of $ today though, I am happy he stopped me from going yesterday. Hohohohoho.

No comments is allowed on the chatter box for this post, no ‘follow ups’ from friends family or whoever. Strictly no. Nothing about this topic should be mention in front of me again. I don’t even want to talk about it. Not even hear any of your 2 cents. Get the picture?

The PROPER job.

I am 23 years old this year, attached half a year ago. Was idleing and bumming around when I was in melbourne. Use to dream of being a kindergarden teacher, but its either I am not cut of for studies or the word text book scares me so much, I never score a satisfying result in studies, resulting in my lack of qualification for going into a teaching course. Although I can’t say for sure that kindergarden teacher is the one job/career that I will be satisfied with all my life. I wish to try it, and hope that once I tried, I will realise that it is the job I’ve always wanted. So I will stop having the need to search for my “the one job” Till this day, this dream is still a dream. With an obstacle I’ve feared for life. Being in this real world though, all the things I’ve said above sounds like nothing but a lame excuse. True, I am definitely in a real world without the thinking to catch up with the realisticism of it. The maturity I need is definitely not here in my darn brain or my emotional self. I’ve probably lead a carefree life with not much worries, or I worry too much about many small things that it seems to others who worry about big things, that I am not exactly a thinking person. People might notice the small things I do and made comments that I am nice or I am thoughtful most of the time, even the discription “kind” was used on me. But a human needs more then just these aspect to survive their life. The merits I have isn’t considered merits as long as it doesn’t earn me money. These I know, all too well.

Holding the “improper” $$/hour job as I have now probably wasn’t attractive to many. Unstable income is one big thing, not having a stable path in the future is another, having to survive each and everyday thinking about not having enough money for the next coming month, yet another… the bright future which everyone would love to have, a family, a nice cosy place you call home etc. Also needs money to sustain. I can still continue…

A person like me, I always think I might be a certain kind of person, not good, not too bad but still passes as not disgustingly evil/mean. Maybe the good comments people made on me before was just words on mouth too, I have no idea. I’ve probably spent too much time looking for what I want, and haven’t have a satisfying results in the long years of time wasted. The detours I took was way too long, I can even see that. Holding jobs which people age lots younger than me can do, being disliked and not trusted by most working adults, and being closer to the younger ones. The last 6 words before the full stop probably made myself a lot of impression before others. It probably mean my brain haven’t live pass that age, that’s why I am this way. The only thing I can say is that, I still enjoy this. Not necessary fun and happy enjoy, but there are things I feel is important too. No doubt surviving and letting my own family survive is the utmost important. Thinking it will work out somehow is not only unrealistic and its immature too. Eventually, the person you rely on too much might just wants to have control over your life, with all the “care about you” reasons to do it. These I know.

Being in a family who is Indonesian Chinese didn’t make it better. In other family, if you’re taking a super long detour, a lot of bad things might arise. But they’ll still know somehow that you know you can’t rely on your parents forever. Even if you’re a 28 years old man who still take allowance from your parents and have them pay your credit card bills. It’s ok, coz they are sure you know you can’t rely on them forever as they are not financially able to do that. Being in a family like mine, people thinks that this kind of parents have such ability, thus all their child who is taking too long of a detour must be planning to rely on their parents for life. In another words, unable to think, or thinking way too little. Yeah that might just be true. So with all the things above, I have only two choice to go? Like… marrying a super rich guy or find a “proper” job that will make sure I am able to ‘survive’ my coming years and help support the family I am suppose to have. ONLY this 2 choice is realistic, if not the “ you have done enough thinking” choice. The naïve thinking of wanting to lead my way of life next time is unrealistic as long as unstable income is in the picture. Worrying too much about little stuff or other people before yourself, is stupid and totally not ideal. Can’t help it is excuse for unwilling to try or just plain laziness.

From here on, I want to make clear what I have in mind. Maybe not in detail but a rough idea will do. I am taking an improper job, not having a rich partner, dreams of the expensive bags and facial products, high end computer and super camera, and things like big plasma TV and Cool looking phone which 80% of function I don’t use. A nice bungalow with gardens outside and maids to take care of it. Fresh air and slow pace world with the person I love and people I care about. Those are dreams.

In reality, I know all the freaking things I’ve said above. Deep deep deep down in my retarded brains. Unfortunately, I use my heart to think way too much. I would like to own a computer, can’t do without a decent one, I worked to buy it, for once. All along I knew it wasn’t a good idea to “please dad buy it for me” so I’ve decided to buy the 1^st expensive things for myself, although my moo chipped in a part of it. Now that I am working, I hope I can get the things I want with my own ability, even with those ‘improper’ jobs I have. Yes unrealistic, but it’s to dream and set it as half a goal.

Before purchasing any real expensive things for myself, I would still evaluate what other things I could do with this money I have. I do admit saving haven’t been part of my plan, but it’s a “yet”. There are still things I consider more important and I haven’t done, and it requires money. Don’t probe. I believe no matter how stupid I am, I still have the right to my privacy. The only thing I can say is, those important things isn’t what anyone would consider materialistic. DON’T probe. I will probably still live in a way which everyone will think is low life for a while. Have my reasons, even if you think it’s just an excuse. You are not getting more information from me.

I am not in a favorable position in any way. Probably most would think if you haven’t done enough thinking to secure your future, you’re not thinking enough. START NOW. And if you think that I am stupid coz I could have worked hard to secure my future with wealth and then do the things that are important after that, since I will have an plentiful of money to spare. Shut up! I am not stupid to that extend. This thought as come across my mind many times, it’s just that the conclusion isn’t that simple. The things that are important to me have a high percentage of disappearing during the process of ‘securing my future’ which I think is not worth. Yes it may be the most important thing to you. Unfortunately not me. Call me an idiot or whatsoever, I have my belief and I still hold them firm. For those many lame excuse that I gave before for not having a freaking proper way of life. These are my reasons which you probably will consider as excuses. Go ahead. You are just trying to help, I know. I can talk to you about it, and you’ll see if you can help. Oh shut up... You care about me thus not letting me stray off pathetically. One thing I can say, I will not and never allow myself to live on my parents forever but I don’t think I need to go to the extent of proving anything. What for? To prove that I am actually doing some thinking? Bullshit. To prove that I have the ability to keep myself alive? Yes I admit I am quite lazy at times or actually most of the time, but I am not without brain. To prove that I am actually mature? I don’t even think I am but I am fine with it, if an explanation is needed, I would just say maturity doesn't mean many things you thought it meant. Need I say more?

I laugh I smile and I may look a bit retarded when I react to certain things, but I still have my tired times and I can be quite a crybaby as well. Just because we have different view doesn’t mean mine is wrong. You just think certain things as more important. Although I do agree that there are limits for that. As for me, I still believe I am still within the limit. Don’t even try to tell my anything else, there is a 100% chance I won’t tell you the truth in any conversation. Its only that this is a blog without a conversation that I am able to even say these things. So shut your trap. Fine? If you can't stop your condemning, you can at least stop your 2 cents worth.

For those who actually read every word of this post, congratulations, its probably the 1st scary post I've made, scary in the sense I could be so childish. For my close friends who might be kind of surprise I made this post. Something hit me hard today, so I've decided to make it. For those who is surprise that I even feel this way, I didn't tell you coz I have things I never tell anyone not even my closest closest person. Don't fret, you're not left out. Its just that I don't have this kind of habit. I won't make it a habit either.

This post doesn’t target only one single person. I am sure some of you knows what I mean.

I was doing more research on snails and decided that egg shells will be their source of calcium. So I threw a bit crushed eggshells in. While doing that though, there is this snail on the transparent sheet * bao xian zhi* hanging upside down, I don’t know what its doing but this particular one loves to be there, when I lift it up and gently put the egg shells in the cage, that stupid baby snail climb to a part of the sheet where I would have flatted it if I seal it back. So I put the egg shell in front of him her it. And it turns his head away, and make his way away from the shell, this goes on for a few minutes and I got impatient. I soak a piece of paper and lifted it from the sheet and put it gently on the leaf.

It didn’t move for a long time hiding in its shell after that, I thought I had hurt it somehow and feel a little sorry for him. I really felt sorry, I thought I have hurt part of his body or what just like the previous toothpick snail. So I carefully put my tank back and let it rest…

I continued doing my research and after a while.. that baby snail whom I thought I hurt was back up and climbing towards the sheet which I used as lid again. NOTI SNAIL! To think I felt sorry hurting it. The other 3 snails are peacefully sleeping on some part of the leaf while this super noti one keeps trying to climb to the transparent sheet. I can regconise it, coz it’s the only one that loves the sheet. Noti noti snail….

Pet Snail Chapter Two

So, I got my new found pet, the baby snails… there was a wrong info yesterday though, instead of 5 baby snails, it was 6! Six! I found one on the underside of the leaf a while after I blogged. But I notice 2 of them didn’t move for the whole time it was in the container.. I pressume it was dead, coz I observe them espcially for a looooong time. so I throw salt on one of them to experiment. It was disappointing though, the baby snails were so tiny that one grain of salt is enough to cover the hole of the shell, so I don’t hear any ppssstt sound, not even the movement of the snail…

The 2^nd one, I use toothpick to make sure if its dead first. I turn it around and start tossing it around with the toothpick, I soaked the toothpick before hand so it won’t dry the snail up.. the snail didn’t budge. I try to poke the slimy body. But I think I poked a little too much. The slime got onto my toothpick. I am sure part of the body landed on my toothpick already, so I didn’t really need to certify it dead. But I am pretty sure it was already dead before my toothpick split his slime.

So now, four baby snails in my care. I asked my cousin to help me buy a proper tank while I was at work. Now I got a tank !! lol..

I did a lot of research last night, on snails basically. Found quite a lot of amazing facts about them. You know what? Snails are …. Unisex!! Or actually Dual sexed! They’re both male and female, each and every one of them. Their egg bag is somewhere around the head, and their deeks apparently is where it should be. So each and every snail can lay eggs. They actually go thru courtship before they mate, and after they mate, which consist of shooting their love slime on each other’s head ( so that’s where the porn hobbies originated from ) they stay together for a while. Aaawww how sweet. The more I read about snails, I find them a lot more cuter then what I expected before I find them. I really wanted to put their photo on this blog, but it seems that no camera I have around is good enough to take a photo of an object this size. Unless I get the camera with super macro mode function which I have been hoping to get for a long time but lets put that aside for now.. I am really quite disappointed that I couldn’t take a proper photo of them, coz they look just like birds droppings on leaf when taken a photo of.

Another funny thing that I found out is that, slugs… you know slugs? They were actually snails… but snails who lost their shells.. aaaaaww how cute. Shell-less snail = slugs… one of the reason I heard was because they’re deprive of calcium, thus eating their own shell to get the source of calcium they need, but the funny thing is, the reason why they need calcium is mainly because they need to keep their shell… healthy, so I don’t see the reason why they eat their own shell to get calcium for their shell. But then again, they’re slimy little creatures which I doubt have much use of their brain even if they have one.

I come across this two sites while doing my research, and a few more which was funny, but I’ll just post 2 url up.

http://www.anderbergfamily.net/ant/snail/adventure.html

This is more like a badly done comic strip but, just read it, its super cute.

http://www.blogjam.com/2005/08/02/garden-snail-risotto

And this………….. is what I’ll never do to my snails.. the most I will really do is to grow them up and hope they mate and give me baby snails, then I’ll throw salt on them and do my ever wanted to try experiment. Well at least I don’t *** them….

I was working at a different type of job today, leaflets…. Yeah.. u know stand there, give out leaflet, and the “BEST” part is you know what? You really do JUST giving out leaflet. NOTHING ELSE. It was one hell of a boring job, I already couldn’t stand this kind of torture for one day, and I am going thru it tomorrow, I wonder how am I going to survive… But poor moo have to go thru that the whole of next week. Buaahahaha I am so damn glad I didn’t accept the job offer because I initially wanted only Sunday to be free for me but the agency cancel out the whole week’s job coz I can’t do Sunday. Initially I though this was bad, but it turns out good ^^ I hope they give me other jobs on week days though, so at least I have something to survive on. I am getting more and more anxious about $ coz of the half promises I made to some people.No I didn’t owe people $. Probably just some birthday presents or some donno whatever occasion present.

My diet haven’t been going too well, and people have started to say I look so different from my photo last year… oh man… I really need to slim down, maybe this coming week when moo is working I will go for some swimming trips. I haven’t been swimming for a long while and I really do miss it.

My resolve before this year ends ! Go back to 50 kg! Gambatte!!!! I hope! I want! And I will!

My new PET! Five of them!!!

Moo went to work again today without me, it’s not my turn to work today. I decided to give him a lil treat. I went to cold storage in the evening to get ingredients for my cooking. Yeap yeap, I decided to cook. His fav soup and his fav noodle.

I went and pick up all those ingredient, came home, play need for speed underground on Lan with my cousins. And then prepare my battle in the kitchen, my cousin did help me out a bit. She seems to like cutting things up, so I left all the cutting up job to her.

I took the chy sim out to wash, the leaves etc, I was plucking them and saw this black thing with shell climbing reeaallly slowly, on the leaf. I thought it’s a beetle so I screamed in a high pitch sound and scare my cousin who is standing behind me checking out on the soup. She thought what on earth happened, and came over and take a look at the so called beetle. To my surprise, it’s not a freaking beetle, it’s a super tiny snail. The size of.. erm… the number 0 on ur keyboard. Yeah that’s about how small it is.. after checking each and every leaf, we found a total of 5. I kept them in my cd stacking case cover and use a “bao xian zhi” to wrap over it, and poke holes for them to breathe, of coz I put some leafs to feed them as well..

There you go, my five new pet. 5 tiny lil baby snails… they punched lil holes on my leafs.. lol.. how cute. I used the stem of my chy sim to poke them once a while.. if I didn’t wash the vege properly, it might have ended up in my soup… poor snails.. if any of them die, I am going to do the experiment I always heard of but haven’t tried. The salt on snails experiment.. I heard they make sizzle sound.. do they? Will found out ^^

Before that, I will take some photos to upload later part of the day .. damn cute I tell u..it’s not like I luv snails, but the size of it is just cute..

Fur ball crisis

Hohohohoho wahahahahah hohohohoho wahahahahaha

Hello Ladies and gentlemen boys and girls. Surprise surprise, be very surprise!!

Me, Jacinth Ho Jia Xing aka sapphiree clean up my room today, clean! I dig out everything from my wardrobe and put it back, actually am change side of wardrobe la to make it tidier, I bought soap bar after that to tie inside my wardrobe, heard that will make my wardrobe smells nice ^^.I even tied one behind my fan where the air got sucked in. I pull out my table and sofa clean up and then move it all around and re position it. Then I change my bed sheet, after I change and am satisfied with what I’ve done. I saw something I hate most on my bed sheet...FURBALLS!!!!!! You know when you wash your bed sheet many times, it would get lots of fur balls on it, and same goes with certain type of clothing material. I don’t really mind having that on my winter coat but, having that on my bed sheet just sharks… I love to rub my leg on the bed to feel the “aaaahh I am on my bed” feeling before I sleep and after I wake up. With the fur ball on it, it doesn’t feel good. I look around for a disposable shaver, I heard from my sis that it works. So with that tiny tiny shave, I shave each and every inch of the surface of the bed sheet. Off with the fur balls! Hate them, hate them…

I love my repositioned com table and sofa too, it makes the room look a whole lot more spacious, although I know it’s not, at least it looks like, that’s enough for me. The only thing is that I am using this really old computer table, its kinda… spoilt, sawdust kept coming out from the leg of the table and fills my floor with sawdust every 1-2 hours after I clean it up… I stop cleaning it after a while. I guess I have to buy a new computer table.. sigh..

My moo was catching up with his 2 days of sleep yesterday night, giving out the loudest snoring sound I’ve ever heard from him. Does lack of sleep really turn up the volume of one’s snore? Well apparently it happens to him. I wasn’t able to sleep so I got up and look around in crunchyroll for any movie that I’ve missed last time. Those which I’ve always wanted to watch when it’s out, but didn’t end up going for some reason. One of them is King and the Clown, I am not sure if it’s ever on the movie but I heard from my cousin it’s a nice movie. Although one of the major reason why my cousin thinks it’s nice is because of the so very cute Korean actor. Yeah he is cute, he is definitely cute, he is super cute, freaking cute, seriously cute, bloody cute. But there is no one man in this world who is not gay that would behave the way he does in the movie. Unless that male mistook some hormones pill for his medication.

Anyway other then the part about HIM BEING CUTE. The movie itself was touching, not so much of funny and a lil bit of bravery, definitely sent a bit of tears to my eyes… other than that, my mind was just filled with how cute he is…. I am probably not at the age to think that a guy like that is cute, but hello, admit it, go look up for this movie and watch it, you’ll think he’s cute too.

I am waiting for moo to come back so he could do the things I couldn’t do. A wire got stuck under the table at the back where I couldn’t reach, I noticed one earlier and used all my strength to carry the table a lil so I could pull out the wire, when I found out there Is a 2^nd wire stuck, I couldn’t draw out anymore strength. And some other things la, lazy to say…

I was hoping my cousin will have the mood to go out tomorrow, feel like bringing them to JB for yam cha. Haven’t gotten the answer yet, and it’s one of my cousin’s birthday today, I remember it the last minute and oooopss no presents… yet… I still owe some pig a present too haha… oooopss, yeah I remember I just haven’t bought it yet…

Forgot to call emirates again today, I have to change my date of flight, my dad change his plans again…. Oh man… its getting sickening. Well but at least I don’t have to spend half my birthday on a plane… good for me.

Please someone, remind me to call emirates anyone… tomorrow… call… emirates…

By the way, my cousin Adeline changed her blog url, I’ve updated it, so go have a look, there is this password thingy for some post which is quite irritating though, it’s like I know something is there but I can’t read it. Makes me all the more curious, but then again, curiosity kills the cat. Let’s stop wondering for now.

It’s been a while since I last posted? Haven’t been doing much lately, just getting some unwanted phone calls and, I’ve been eating a lot of Ba Zhang lately, I am sick of it already. Someone keep sending the Ba Zhang over repeatedly and told us it is our dinner… well of coz I could have just reject it but most of the time when she called, I either sleeping or working, so I just, ok ok ok ok ok *hang up* then Ta dah~~ Ba Zhang appears on my dining table at dinner time. I don’t even know if they are they “expired” coz it’s not very seldom that she will send near to expire food to us so we could clear them up. She is none other than my aunt. I don’t even want to go deeper talking about her…

Ok, so I went to meet Pam for lunch today, although it’s just to pass her the mango membership card, but I think she got the date wrong, the member sales was tomorrow, not today I think since I got the sms. I would really laugh my ass off if the sale is supposed to start from tomorrow. As planned yesterday, I was suppose to go to my cousin’s place to do something with her com, but shekinda stood me uuupppppp~~ so the mos burger she ordered ended up in moo’s stomach. Not like I walked extra distance because of that, so I didn’t really care, but I could have went mango shopping with Pam instead if I knew earlier… ~~~~~but then again, maybe I shouldn’t. I’ll probably wait till I am in a better shape before I do some serious shopping. I wonder when will my so ever dream ‘better shape’ happen…

With all the Mac Donald’s I am having late night so often, I doubt it will be soon…. *sad*

I watched the anime Gokusen in season 1, they didn’t have season 2 anyway. It’s surprising quite a good anime. Sure it’s not new, but who says it must be new to be good. Another anime I like which is really old too is Hunter X Hunter all the way from 1998. It’s another anime with good story lines although the quality of the art itself is a lil different from the modern ones. The only sad part is the artist himself met with an unfortunate accident and sort of disabled his writing hand or some sort. He tried drawing on his other hand but the drawing didn’t turn out well, and his manga has been coming out at a super low frequency since. It’s still something I feel sad about till now, coz I can’t read his manga... boo hoo… well at least not at a fast speed and it leaves me hanging each and every time a chapter comes out. You know…

Anyway, I search for gokusen season 2 and realize there is none for anime, so I tried watching the drama series instead but I can’t stand watching it for more than 2 hours. The acting was so way off. They did try to act like what anime characters would do and react… but seeing those actions on real human is a lil too much…

Like throwing your fist in the air and make a resolve standing at the sea side. With the strong sea waves splashing against the rock….

I could go on

I skipped to the last episode for the same reason but found out, the story line is not all that bad although it comes along with that horrible acting. There are tears forming in my eyes when watching the last episode… So I decided to look for the manga instead… I read it, found out the story is not anything like drama season 2, it was way off better. Funny and a lot more related to the 1^st season of anime. I was laughing while reading it, I kinda did scare my moo a lil with all the sudden laugh halfway reading a motionless and soundless manga. But all in all, it’s a good story~~~~

Gonna bring my cousin for a re-rebonding tml I think, *if I can wake up* coz her hair kinda went haywire. I mean, hay wire. Even with the hay wired hair, it didn’t turn anything about her ugly though, I wonder why there is this special person who thinks so even when her fair is perfectly fine. She probably is the only one in the world who thinks so, and she probably doesn’t realize that her heart has to be the ugliest among the non criminal people, I didn’t even think some criminals are worse than her and, I do seek knowledge on which part of her brain did she use most of the time. I am sure it would be a breakthrough for science to do a research on such brain function, it’s something new, I am sure of it… She is next in line for the list of type of people I despise other than those old perverts who molest children or people who rob from old woman or those rapist etc etc, u know what I mean. Note that I use the word despise, not hate. Sometimes I feel despise is a stronger word for hate, I don’t know why.

Ok maybe I a bit Kua Zhang, but that just shows how much I despise her. Yes I know very well that I am not perfect just like every other living thing in the universe. But I don’t think I will ever stoop to her level. EVER ~

Oh man.. now I am sleepy again, I better go have my sleep, might wake up in the mid of night, but hope I can just sleep till tml morning hohoho…

PS : If someone knows where I can find ghost hunt manga, please drop me a msg on the comment box with the url of it. ^^ would be greatly appreciated.

Yesterday the 16^th of June, was Cass’s full months celebration in a restaurant. Originally I thought it was those buffet that lets you take a plate and get whatever you want out of those rectangular metal tray but no, it was a unique buffet, they serve you like how they would if you go to a normal restaurant for a dinner.

Cass himself was cuter then I expected. With his tiny tiny little face and mouth and big eyes, and the other entire feature. I am starting to get the feeling that my friend is a mom. I literally know she is a mum but, seeing how Cass is like now, it just feels kinda different. You know straight away by looking at her that, “she must have worked hard.”

Viki herself? Omg…. I almost feel like killing her, she slim down so much. I can’t really believe my eyes. She was like ahem.. U knows when she gives birth. Now... gosh…. Holy mother of Christ lord, her face slimmed down so much. And the funny thing is I’ve only realized she had been growing quite a lot after I’ve seen her back to her slimmer self. I must have been blind.

We watch fantastic four yesterday with moo and Jayson, the silver surfer thingy. It was a short 1 hour 30 mins show but, the 1 hour 30 mins + the movie tickets are well spent. Anyone considering if they should spend the $ on it should consider no longer, just give it a go, you won’t regret it. I am not gonna spill anything about the story here, playing an angel for not being a spoiler. Hur hur

All three of us head back to my place after the movie, I happened to have downloaded need for speed 2 underground for fun, and was trying it out on my pc game controller. There was a newer one, I didn’t know, but after I knew, I still couldn’t get a proper cracked version around anyway. So I decided to stay with NFS2. The game is quite fun, and the best part is it can be played lan. ^^ you could imagine what I will do with it right? I only have one game controller though, gonna get another one for my old com so anyone can have a car race with game controlling on 2 coms. One word…. SHIOK.

I’ve downloaded this virtual pool game too. Unlike the other online pool game with a floor plan view. This one kinda… gives you the feeling that you’re really playing in the centers… with the horizontal view on table line If you get what I mean. It’s just a lot more realistic, and more importantly, its lan!

Yeah yeah, since I got 2 com in my room now, I am going to make full use of it. I haven’t downloaded it, but I will do more searches for such games, it could be quite entertaining. At least it’s not every day you play games like these…

The lamest game I have downloaded is Tetris… LAN! I am not gonna say much about it. Total disappointment. It’s the wrong version, I wanted the one that can sabotage the other party if you clear more lines type. If anyone knows where I can get that version or what the name of it is, let me know. I’ll give you a big big smooch. Don’t worry I’ll brush my teeth first.

Work today was quite... hhhmmm… boring, although I met this old work mate of mine whom I was closer with before, well she is a ‘xiao mei mei’ and I seems to like to take care of people like these. Not necessary in an obvious way, but I have the tendency to look out for their backs for people of such age, of coz innocent ones. Those prick better get off my shoulder.

I notice a few things at work today

1) The things I do can be sometimes quite appreciated by people. I can’t help myself but try to do anything I could if I see people with really lost faces. Today I know this behavior was appreciated, it’s not like I expected it to be because it’s not something that I have in mind. That’s why when the feeling comes, it’s a lil surprising and a lil delightful. It’s good.

2) Why do they have a believe that couples who works in the same company will have many disputes. Yeah I think I can somehow understand. Its difference in expectation you have from your colleagues and your spouse. You may accept that a colleague do little lies and cover ups for his own mistake or ignorance because you can totally understand that he didn’t want to get into unnecessary trouble but, for a spouse, you just might want someone who is more responsible for their own actions. Seeing a working side of a spouse and still having the confident that he will not treat you the same way will probably need a lot of…. Foundation…. That’s the best word I can use. Until now I realized, I haven’t been able to do it.

3) Girls can be really cynical, I mean, really! Cynical. Every time there is a booth set up by Singtel - yes to those who still don’t know, I am working under singtel roadshow now. There will always be a coordinator around to make sure we arrive on time, do our job, and everything is well at the booth. Etc etc, those people are a person who will tell you what you lack when you do something that is not satisfying enough. The coordinator here today is someone who is new, didn’t know anything. And when we need things from him, he is always nowhere to be found. This of coz ends up in a lot of waiting and queuing up on the customer side and waiting and messiness on our booth’s side. There are only two girls there me and K. Both of us started to be irritated, thinking he must be off skiving, shopping somewhere blah blah… and the more he disappears when we need him, the more we think this way and the even more irritated we are, I was on the verge of ‘telling’ him to stay around here and do his job. Yeah even though he is suppose to be the one doing the pushing. Well part of the reason is because the girl’s side of job is a lot more affected by absence. Then after all the cynical comments behind his back and such such yada yada… we come to realize that he isn’t skiving at all, he was standing outside out of the air con area, giving out pamphlets, while we? Playing scissors paper stone and mine sweeper in the air con room couldn’t care lesser about the sales figure… There you go. Women are cynical creature… The guys on the other hand looked at the fact, before making or having any judgmental thoughts. How very guilty I feel, really I do. At the end of the day I gave him a big big smile before everything ends… I know it won’t make up for it but still….

Today ends in a tiring day and I very much wanted to yak yak with viki but.. sorry my friend… I haven’t sleep much last night… tomorrow ok????? Muachks . luv ya.

Each and every time I know I am going on a trip soon, I would be all so excited and thinking what to bring what to do, etc etc… what to buy… but this time, its blank… The only thing I am really looking forward to is to see my friends there and spend some quality time… actually, friend, not friendsssssssssss. I kinda miss her all the time she is not around, all the shopping and all seems a lil different without her, of coz this time I gonna go and shop all I want again. Shop shop shop, gonna go to blue fire for the chocolate shots oh man I miss that. And the Victoria market oysters…. And her ….. weird but homely cooking.

I haven’t tell her I am coming over, planning to give her a super big surprise~ I tell you she would be so surprised. I can’t wait to see her face when I suddenly appear at her apartment. Hohoho. And then order her to go up have a change and bring her shopping. And I tell you, keeping this kind of secret is really hard. I got the urge to sms her and let her know, but but…. Hee hee hee…

It’s raining cats and dogs this time of the day, early morning and I am suppose to bring my cousin for hair rebonding later, the same place I did my rebonding. My hair started to frizz bout 2 weeks after and I was wondering if they would do it for me again. It was nearly a month already since I did the rebonding, I wouldn’t be surprised if they didn’t do it for me again. I would be glad if they do, but I won’t be disappointed too if they didn’t, my hair’s ‘health’ would be worse if they rebond it again anyway. The thing I am worried about now is the rain, rebonded hair, walk out of salon, rain rain rain, hair spoil. You know what I mean… it can get disastrous.

I have to work later today after the salon visit. And then tomorrow, viki’s buffet. No doubt the star of that day is cass, but I am still more into wondering how viki looks like now. Since after the birth of cass, her blog has been filled with cass’ photo instead of her own. That’s what a mother is like I guess.

I really hope my screwed up sleeping time would go back to normal after today. Although I know for sure it won’t last long even if I tune it back now, but at least for a while, please. I stayed up today specially to change my sleeping time. That explains why I am blogging early in the bloody morning…

I have nothing to say, but I have to say something so I won’t sleep…

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Hohoho took lorry to the mrt station from the work place again today. I still so love the lorry ride. Have been eating Mac Donald’s supper lately... and a big amount… each supper cost each of us bout $10 each time. You can imagine the amount of food $10 can buy from Mac Donald’s… yeah… and to make it worse... its supper… you know supper… not breakfast not lunch but supper… = Xtra weight gains the normal meals… I’ve turned into an owl again... initially I was hoping that by eating a few pieces of bread a day, I could surely lose some weight, this theory only worked when I am living alone it seems…

Well back in Melbourne I have to get my own food, with the extend of extreme laziness I am, sometimes or most of the time, I’d rather tolerate with my hunger then willing to go down 7-11 to get some food supply. And I would drink tap water if there is no orange juice left in the fridge. Now that I am in Singapore, I kinda have someone to buy me my meals every time… apples juices mango juices… packet drinks… yeah... those evil packet drinks... and a walking reminder of the word hunger right by my side 24/7 – my moo. He is hungry almost every two hours... Even my godson who is nearly a month old now and definitely need more nutrients intake for his growth, drinks his milk about once every three hours… my moo? 1 more hour faster. Sigh... with the word hunger hanging around me every 2 hours and supply of food almost anytime I want... is there any way not to get fat other than running every now and then?

Oh btw, did I mention I saw erm… some famous blogger from Singapore, a female who is kinda an expert in Photoshop as well, need I say more? Anyway I saw her, and she was surprisingly erm… not as tall as what I expect. I’ve always thought that I am a shortie already, I am shorter than most people I know, I am shorter then my cousin’s who are way younger than me. Everyone just seems to outgrow me at some point of time. But I saw someone who is short enough to be obvious at the distance of at least two meters. Hell did that make my day, I didn’t mean to make fun of people’s erm… u know… but I was just happy that once in a awhile I still see people who is shorter than me. It’s just an occasional reminder not to lose my confidence. Ok fine, it does sounds like an excuse… ok fine I am evil… …. … … what…. Shut up

I am starting to get a hang of using the new Microsoft words. It’s not that hard to use after all, they just ‘misplaced’ every single thing, some brain twisting and some super eye hurting search would be enough to get everything in place. Not only am I getting use to it, I totally love it. Unlike some new bl**dy w*nd*ws that only look nice and don’t work well. Sure Microsoft office 2007 look lots nicer on the whole and in a pleasant color. It certainly works well too.

The last thing on my blog today and will probably be on the rest of my blog in the future until the 4^th of July will be. I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy… I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

I am still affected by the birthday on plane thingy…

Was really tired on Sunday, worked long hour and I didn’t even get enough sleep the day before.

It was the 10^th, and the day passes before we realized. Although we’re both tired and all but the next day we realized we passed our half year “anniversary” without knowing. Moo feeling something missing and wasted… wished me happy anniversary out of the blue. I was “???” took me about 10 seconds before I realized. I think he is the first guy who remembers it before I do.

One more bad news is that I couldn’t get seats on emirates after 4^th of July no matter how many times I try, so it’s either 3^rd or 4^th of July. I chose 4^th of July so at least I can still pass almost half day of my birthday in Singapore. I am having bout more than 7 hours of my birthday on a plane, sounds a bit sad. It will be the first time I have a birthday on air. Not a celebration but at least I am still on air… just trying to cheer myself up about being on plane on my birthday…. “On air” sounds a hundred times nicer then pathetically alone. Although I am used to not celebrating any birthdays, but on a plane feels a whole level more lonely.

Man, I still can’t get it out of my head… birthday alone… I guess I need some retail therapy to fill this sadness man. Wait till I get to Melbourne. Or even the airport, there are more than enough things to get from airport already…

I haven even updated my re entry permit yet, the staff at immigration centre always didn’t allow me to get an extension of 5 years straight because I don’t have ‘O’ levels. I had to go back every year because of that, and each time I have to give funny reasons. I left my cert in Melbourne, etc. This time I will be bringing my year 11 ‘cert’ more of result, but whatever will do. No matter how, year 11 is equivalent to JC year one, I seriously hope that will save me the trouble of doing so much explaining. Hopefully she gives me 5 years extension of re entry permit too.

After I come back, I really hope to find a better job. Not necessary stable, just fixed hours and the kind of pay that my current job is giving. I hate stable job, coz most of the time it means office jobs, boring environment etc. I don’t know, maybe I am not cut out for mature. Most people would link maturity to the kind of jobs you are holding, but I opt to differ. I may not be mature still now, but I hate it when people thinks of high school, university, fix job, filial like a dog, neat, tidy, log headed, only talk about business and stories which lets you learn things from as maturity. All of those are just either having a different type of knowledge or character difference. Maturity to me is more of like a sense of mental thinking or tactfulness in handling things or both, and some other senses and thinking. If you’re someone who got the highest paying job with a angelic family with 4 kids who studies in good schools and goes to church every Sunday but makes everyone around you inside or outside of your family feel miserable because you think that with all the prospect you have, you have the right to be stubborn and selfish. I don’t think you’re good enough to be called mature.

Not really aiming at anybody just remembered a lot of things suddenly and felt like venting it out.

Anyway, It seems like it will be a busy week next week. Got to go and have and EARLY night, yes its early morning bed time to me now. But before that, let’s put up some more nice wallpaper to chose from, its always better to have more choices. ^^

Sweet flower


White Petal

Death


Spider


Butterfly