Went out the whole of yesterday with Viki. Quite a good day I would say, we got what we wanted. I manage to buy my esprit wallet… the dark brown one without carvings if Blackie and Pam is wondering which one. A pair of.. erm.. shoes… with a tiny lil but if heel. And erm… shirts for my moo…

But the best thing if all is, I am able to see a whole day of Cass.. what he does.. etc… it’s fun and tiring both at the same time. Fun when he smiles at you etc etc… fun when he is on the verge of crying and how u just need to carry him up in the air, it took him just 1 second to change that =( to a =D. Fun when u do something which is so unamusing to anyone else but is so amusing to him… he can laugh at the same thing I did for fifty times without getting bored… it didn’t work at the end of the day though when he need some food and some sleep and some food and some sleep and some food and some sleep coz I think that is the only 2 thinks he really need right now other then the basic life sustaining oxygen and tremendous amount of attention. He is quite an attention seeker, probably like other babies, but I didn’t quite remember having any impression of my cousins being an attention seeker when I was young.. really young… maybe because I was young too then and got every amount of energy in the world to play with that… so I didn’t feel it.

I remember I didn’t think of my cousin’s as babies when I was young although yes I call them babies as a term… but I was really thinking of tiny humans that will never grow up to be as huge as myself… and they will forever go gigiagagagogugugu when they speak, and I will have this imaginary lines that I thought they meant… and I will reply gegeuaugeoegoa which is the answer that I have translated for them to their understanding, and they will smile like they understand what I said when I didn’t know myself… now I realize all those stupid sounds which I thought was baby language when I was young, are just sounds which babies find new and amusing because sounds have different syllabus. Their smile didn’t mean they understand… it means that they are just amused… but u know what? I can’t really figure out how my baby language talks can go on for a long period of time before my cousin learns language. How did they manage to keep up with all my rubbish talking.

There are times when I talk to Cass knowing that he won’t understand but pretending that he understand but still knowing he don’t understand.. and Viki told me he actually understand some of the things I do, don’t think he is still the blur blur baby. I was kind of amused… I was wondering which part of the process of me making fun of him did he understand when his mum was in the fitting room.

Anyway I did something I realize is stupid when I was at TCC with them. I spread my hands and said “hi-fi~” and expect him to already know what to do, when he just smile at me clueless I decided to just take his little hand and five me…his hand slap only about ¼ of my palm. Aaawwww the cuteness of it.

And when Viki show her anger on Cass, and I decided to hug him a little and see what positive effect it has on him when someone shows care when he is sad… you know what… he did something really really really cute… he just put his face on my chest and rub his head all around and look at me with a puppyish eyes once every few rub… That moment I thought he is the cutest little thing in the world but his mum told me he is just acting ke lian… well to gain people’s “aaawww-ness” but isn’t that what babies do? Lol

I realize something though, I wasn’t sure if it was because of the occasionally lifting up and down, or escalating in the shops… but the things that Cass do was only for a short period of time each…

Drinks milk sleep wake up blur mood happy mood bad mood drinks milk sleep wake up blur mood happy mood bad mood. This routine just goes round and round like a cycle, but each of them doesn’t last long. It’s quite amusing to see it happening like that for a day…. The downside is that I spent more than I expected yesterday, so I have to save save save again... pray that I have the will power to do that or if not I am going to get into very very very into trouble…

I woke up today with aches here and there on my whole body… ouch… I haven’t been doing exercise for so long and I carried his pram up and down the stairs along with Viki, I threw him up the air many times when he is on the verge of crying, but most of the time is just for the fun of seeing him =I =D =I =D =I =D =I =D

I couldn’t really get myself to wake up today coz of the pain… I was wondering that it is gonna be a pain having to wake up with muscle aches everyday… probably what Viki is going through lol… ouch..

So anyway, got up today and work. I haven’t finish the wine on dummies, but another book was intro-ed to me by a customer although my uncle didn’t really think the book help much… I am sticking with my wine for dummies for now coz it’s light and interesting to read.. very absorbable as well…