Was really tired on Sunday, worked long hour and I didn’t even get enough sleep the day before.
It was the 10th, and the day passes before we realized. Although we’re both tired and all but the next day we realized we passed our half year “anniversary” without knowing. Moo feeling something missing and wasted… wished me happy anniversary out of the blue. I was “???” took me about 10 seconds before I realized. I think he is the first guy who remembers it before I do.
One more bad news is that I couldn’t get seats on emirates after 4th of July no matter how many times I try, so it’s either 3rd or 4th of July. I chose 4th of July so at least I can still pass almost half day of my birthday in Singapore. I am having bout more than 7 hours of my birthday on a plane, sounds a bit sad. It will be the first time I have a birthday on air. Not a celebration but at least I am still on air… just trying to cheer myself up about being on plane on my birthday…. “On air” sounds a hundred times nicer then pathetically alone. Although I am used to not celebrating any birthdays, but on a plane feels a whole level more lonely.
Man, I still can’t get it out of my head… birthday alone… I guess I need some retail therapy to fill this sadness man. Wait till I get to Melbourne. Or even the airport, there are more than enough things to get from airport already…
I haven even updated my re entry permit yet, the staff at immigration centre always didn’t allow me to get an extension of 5 years straight because I don’t have ‘O’ levels. I had to go back every year because of that, and each time I have to give funny reasons. I left my cert in Melbourne, etc. This time I will be bringing my year 11 ‘cert’ more of result, but whatever will do. No matter how, year 11 is equivalent to JC year one, I seriously hope that will save me the trouble of doing so much explaining. Hopefully she gives me 5 years extension of re entry permit too.
After I come back, I really hope to find a better job. Not necessary stable, just fixed hours and the kind of pay that my current job is giving. I hate stable job, coz most of the time it means office jobs, boring environment etc. I don’t know, maybe I am not cut out for mature. Most people would link maturity to the kind of jobs you are holding, but I opt to differ. I may not be mature still now, but I hate it when people thinks of high school, university, fix job, filial like a dog, neat, tidy, log headed, only talk about business and stories which lets you learn things from as maturity. All of those are just either having a different type of knowledge or character difference. Maturity to me is more of like a sense of mental thinking or tactfulness in handling things or both, and some other senses and thinking. If you’re someone who got the highest paying job with a angelic family with 4 kids who studies in good schools and goes to church every Sunday but makes everyone around you inside or outside of your family feel miserable because you think that with all the prospect you have, you have the right to be stubborn and selfish. I don’t think you’re good enough to be called mature.
Not really aiming at anybody just remembered a lot of things suddenly and felt like venting it out.
Anyway, It seems like it will be a busy week next week. Got to go and have and EARLY night, yes its early morning bed time to me now. But before that, let’s put up some more nice wallpaper to chose from, its always better to have more choices. ^^
Sweet flower
White Petal
Death
Spider
Butterfly
