Just that simple.

Can’t sleep at all thinking a lot of things, I think this few days my blog will be filled with lousy emotional baggage.

I was laying on my bed and trying to sleep, had to leave my house at 7 am tomorrow for some errand. Then I was thinking about many things I’ve seen.

I’ve seen many families with trouble thinking about how to spend their money next month, and how to save it. I’ve also seen families who is rich enough to have their son brings out a stack of $50 dollar notes for pocket money each and every day, with a few credit card and one piece of green American express card that everyone dream of having.

Although the rich one also have their good and bad. But I would like to emphasize a bit more on the poor ones. I am not saying all the rich families don’t have their qualities... how should I put this. I just want to say it, don’t ask for so much explanation can?

I am just going to state a few examples. Say like in a family, always making sentences like “ai yah, next month have to save up more again, the hand phone bill is unexpectedly high this month.” Or things like “ai yoh, I lost the $50 note In my wallet ar, just have slipped out when I took out the receipt to check just now, how am I going to survive next week”

These are things that most rich family wouldn’t be troubled for. $50, if it’s a rich family’s kid, he would probably just be nag at a bit. The poor family’s kid? Think of ways to earn back the $50. They are also the same people whom show me a sense of humanity. When a person is rich enough, there is no need to worry about medical bills if you’re sick. You can afford it! Even staying in private rooms in the best hospital won’t be a problem. When they are poor though, they have to stay in the standard class wards. Even so, it might be too expensive for them, thinking of ways to get the money. And if you’re old, you probably do not have enough energy to earn the money yourself especially when you’re already on a hospital bed. In this kind of situation, not all, but some families will just spread the news to the relatives, cousins, niece, nephews, in laws. All if not most of them would do extra work to chip in so that the old woman would survive by having an Op. You may think that it is a given, but how many times do you really see it happening. Although they are always worrying, they still have lived their life happily, strong, beautifully. After all, happiness is not the absence of worries. More than anything, they know the importance of give and take.

When you’re high up there at the peak of the mountains, you see the beautiful white fluffy clouds. You see the world. You are nearer to the sky, and that gives you a sense of satisfaction, it is not a sin. Some prefers the flowers that you can’t see on the mountain peak. Some prefers the height of a tree top. Some prefers to get lost and have fun in the forest. They could never see the view of the peak of a mountain but, it’s ok. No matter where you stand, you see different type of beautiful things. You have preference in those too. Even if you said you’ve seen the view from the top and you’ve passed through the flowers to reach it, it doesn’t mean you definitely know I prefer it up there. One doesn’t need to own a diamond to know that diamond is hard. One doesn’t need to own an abundance of money to know what money can do. Maybe the feeling of really being up there is different, but its not all that important. Many could live without it.

I am not saying all poor families are the best, I am not that -_-“ you know what I mean. Even among the poor there are people who rather bury themselves with drugs and know nothing but drinks alcohol day and night and couldn’t care less about anything. It’s just that between the good of both, I appreciate the majority surrounding of one of them more. It’s just that simple

The purpose of this post is to hope that after posting what have been running thru the back of my mind for the past few years and the 'front' of my mind the past few hours, I will be able to sleep finally.