Tuesday, April 3
hey hey... long time no blog hohoho
i've been eating a lot of things since i last blog, haha getting the weights =~~ but i could never have miss it since i saw it, went to crystal jade la mian at suntec, omg.. xiao long bao.. its xiaobao!!
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one of my fav dian xin. memories ~~ when i was still in melbourne, my sis and our friend will go together to this chinese cafe kinda thing, order their xiao long bao. in the cold cold weather we like to slowly sark out the hot hot soup bit by bit from it, and its heaven. its the 1st time i ever ate a xiao long bao in singapore. i still luv it from the bottom of my heart..
the next dish is more like a dessert its dou sha guo bing or something.. this dark red paste thingy in pan dried outer layer skin.. i believe most of you will know what i am talking about after taking a look at... this..
seeing this 2 dish.. it just made me miss my friend in melbourne, of coz my sis too.. i miss the cold cold days where we all wear like penguin, and freeze when we come out of a certain cafe. and enjoy the warm meals like we never before..
aaawww the good ol food days...
but lately, i've been feeling a lil to the down side. as all of my fellow friends know. i am not studying now, neither do i have a job. i did apply for jobs and only got one single pathetic interview which i never even get listed and its not some skillful and professional job, its just a receptionist and i didn't get it.. it hit me big time in my head "JACINTH CAN'T DO A RECEPTIONIST'S JOB."
Well i've never tried applying for receptionist, this is my 1st time. and yeah , of coz i've face many rejections for jobs when i was younger, but thats about years ago when i was still young, "YOUNG" is the keywords.. when you're young, its ok if you can't do office job. i am 23 this year ~~~~~ can u feel my pain... yes yes that pain ~~
now thats not really affecting me anymore.. what affect me most most most is .... (pause, i go check my bacon)
ok i am back.. ok.. what affect my most most most is... u see, my elder sister is someone who have decided to start learning skills of real business by on field practice and is doing it now. my eld brother, i have no idea what he is doing but whatever he is doing it must be something that normal angelic people would think is good, - mark my word 'angelic'. As for my younger brother is in army, so what can he do. he didn't have a choice. even my moo who is a year younger then me have some technical skills he can use to find jobs. Not to mention my friends, who is either studying of have some jobs on hand. and when it comes to me - no usable cert no N or O levels, no solid skills or knowledge. the last good things i heard about myself is from my elder cousin from indo who said i have a heart, but come to think of it again. maybe bout 1 out of 10 people u randomly pick on street will have a good heart, or at least act like they do, so its so common that i am so insignificant.
The worst of all is that everyone seems to have a goal to live for.. me... i don know what i like and i don't know what i want and the best part is, i am lazy and not good with studies. i am sure of coz if i found something i like i would have given my all, that goes to anyone too, sadly i didn't even know what i like.or maybe i didn't like anything but i can't just rot my life away.. u might wanna luff ur ass off but i've even thought about social working.
Had a short 5 - 10 mins heart to heart talk with my moo yesterday night, i brought him out of my house in case i am in all tears and i definitely do not want anyone in my family to see that. Not only tears, in fact any emotions. That talk was good though, it doesn't really lift my mood but it eased me a lil.
i've decided. there is one thing that i have been wanting to do all these years.. not that many. just something i wanted to do since 3 years ago.. i wan to learn dancing.. it reminds me of my eld cousin from indo too, she too wants to learn dancing. but she didn't really have a chance to. now i have the free time to, and i thought i should. i check up some dancing schools lol.. those short lessons for adults etc.. its not expensive and quite easy to go.. just that i've never step into a studio since after my primary 1 ballet experience. its kinda scary to go to an unfamiliar place especially i don know what its really all about.. maybe i should drag someone to go with me.. anyone interested? there is a trial lesson for $10 ^^^ please please ~~~~ let me know if u wanna. there are plenty of different type of dance, here are some.
http://www.anjcreative.com.sg/dances.htm
on that page, just click on any of the type of dance, it should bring u to a page and explain what that particular type of dance is about. in general, but of coz u could search it off goggle for a better explanation.
for a sub interest, i am thinking of guitar..... =x anyway just let me know if anyone is interested ^.^
